Chatting

i have a nice chat today..

not bad that we actually realize that the fault of having a younger age boyfriend.

why i said so?..

well, my own view..

i realize that i couldn't argue with him...

but have to listen to him.. although u know that is totally CRAP..

hurm.. how to say.. for example.. u wouldn't like to argue with your little brother right?..

it is just like this.. how pathetic..

YES.. it is

that is a lot actually.. now i realize that something very annoying happen in my gang recently..

well.. immature...

such like....

teasing.. yes!

very very very annoying... till the max!

have u ever seen a grown up adult that actually over react like a child?..

talk like a child move like a child..

please la..

may i ask..

how old r u?

funny right?..

have u ever think about that your so called teasing is not funny at all..

well.. selfish i guess..

bla bla bla...

i crap and i crap..

anyway... i'm just too bored..

good to have a blog for me to crap.. v^.^v

The Choice

The choice i made is right...

no turning back..

if not..

the more you regret.. =)

The Rhythm

The rhythm is mixing around..

The Piano

The piano plays..

The soft rhythm slowly appears in my mind..

The second world of me enters..

appears in front of the piano..

touches it..

listen..

The music that slowly touches my heart..

Slowly makes me weak..

Slowly..

the tears of sorrow..

appears again..

slowly..

and slowly..

the realistic of me..

disappears.

Why?

Today..

when i wake up..

I realize that i had a weird dream..

another sleepless night.

quite a while i didn't update my blog..

well.. didn't know why today have the mood..

the first sentence that popped out in my mind..

I don't want to dream anymore..

can I sleep in peace?..

I'm having almost the same dream repeat and repeating again..

i wish there's a "stop" mode for me to press..

past tense..

but still continuous tense..

the engagement ring~

I will never regret when the ring was put on to my finger~

i am no longer here...

the second chance

If you think that every one deserve the second chance..

then.. does it means apologize is accepted and forgiven?..

Well, appreciate it, if the second chance is given..

AIN'T NO MORE

still never change..

and yet..

seems like won't change..

friends...

the question that you asked me..

and the answer that i couldn't give..

it is just because

i'm too scared to be back the scenes that i wouldn't want..

friends...

the question you asked me..

the answer is yes... definitely yes...

if the whole situation change...

friends...

the question you asked me...

is confusing..

although i got the answer in my heart..

but i'm afraid to do it..

just say i'm a turtle..

but then.. is just.. hope hurts will never return again..

but yet..hoping happiness will come back to me..

Confusing

now only i know the feeling..

totally out of my mind...

super duper luper fuper... TIRED

fark my life..damn...

what a frigging emo day...

extremely emo...

emo kia...again...always..every day every second every minute every hour...

when does this 'emo' can get rid from my life...

pissing me off..

FARK!

i miss you ...

box myself

angie..

stop thinking nonsense lorh..

*box myself*

see u~

wuhhoo~~
almost 18th dy~
gonna see u soon~!~!~!

what i've learnt is to be more patient..
sometimes you see things..
u know theres something wrong..
and you'll start thinking of ask or not?..
if u ask.. maybe things will get worst..
but at least you know the truth..
if you don ask.. you will get crazy by every day play teka teki..
choose to give up.. is the best...
you rather treat is as a dream ..a wonderful dreamt..


you see.. what i said.. it is real.. realli happened.. how pathetic..
if you dont know how to love.. then dont simply choose a girl and get the relationship start..

idiot..

i miss the moment we are together..
although is not romantic..
i miss the moment you are by my side..
although we are not alone..
i miss the moment you asked me for chance..
although we are in crowd..
i miss the moment when i leave..
although you are not there for me..

i thought of single is the best..
yet..
i cant break through my heart..
the sorrow days..
you brighten me up..
the miserable days..
you are there for me..

you made me looked back..
actually there are more things i left out..
my dear
thank you..


yet
although our distance is far..
but we still meet each other every single day..
although i can't touch you..
but still..
i can see your face..

woohoo~~~ having so much fun during my birthday~

Thanks guys and gals~~!!

yo'll gave me a big blast~

I enjoyed a lot~

=D

12 am : unexpected surprised given by my step sister and her bf~ =D love u~~!!!

and also unexpected surprised given by my dear~ although u r not here with me..but i appreciate that a lot~! =D love u too~! and also.. my beloved fwens~! all gathered and count down with me~ my god..so touching ><>

accept or not?

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

ala ala...

i dunno..=.="

the rhythm of the songs..

will make your mind dance..

~~the good fwen of mine~~
~~ Muackz suching~~
SS gang! XD
cucumber drink..=.="
woohoo~~~ Fwenz forever~

me, suching, likeat(patung stick on da wall), ling

my treasure is going to be here..

Tell me..
What am I going to do?..
A new year.. a new start for me..
miserable things has over..

flash back..
is just a dream..
an unpredictable dream..
that full of feelings..
happy..sad..sour..bitter...sweet..



The time at home..
Is still the best of the best..
full of trees..
Greenish of the forest..
Ocean sounds..
that can wipe my tears away..
I miss that a lot...

Now..the important thing is..
I miss you a lot..
my friends~
You all gave me an extremely crazy memorable day~
and probably..
I found my treasure..
I never thought that it would be my treasure..
Never thought of it..
Lucky~

new life is started~!











I want to go back to the place i was born~ XD
as soon as possible..

laziness..

lazy..
i miss my hometown a lot..
don't feel like doing my assignments..
haih..

Fly upon the sky

Good person, you're are the first who love me

The person who taught me to love

Never forget you

I will remember you

I'll remember only you

Perhaps, I might see you,

So I wore the cloths you bought to me

I cut my hair short, the way you like it

To walk the road I walked with you

I went round the long way thinking maybe you'd be there

I still have the same phone number

My house is still same

in case you come and find me

Oh my mini hompy,

I have the songs we listened together

Thinking maybe you'll look

and you'll come back again

we still haven't forgotten

we still want each other

we're still in love

SEPERATED!

Honestly I miss you

I miss you like crazy

I'll wait for you till the end

I stop and wonder

If you'll come back to me

Because I might see you

I might get weak on the road

Because my heart might become weak

I might reveal my worn out self

In order to ignore the road we walked together

I take a long way

Because you might be there

I already change my phone number

Because i might think of you I moved my house, too

But my mouth keeps spilling words I shouldn't say

Maybe because I might see you

because you might come back

i'll begin again

I want to say to you

That even if we could never see each other again

I'm still holding on you

As the rain pours down

The memories of our first meeting come

I feel so pathetic

You still have a place in my heart

Do I have the courage to resist you?

Even so, I'll endure it a little more

My love to you is so strong

I tired my best but its impossible

maybe i'll see you by coincidence

and maybe you'll see me

I wipe my tears

while looking at myself in the mirror

Hoping maybe you'll come back....

I can't defeat my heart

what am i thinking recently?..

seems like lost memory..

memory card missing in my brain?..

or corrupted again..

你伤害了从第一.. 你想伤害第二次？

疯狂的

jin pain my hand.. ish..

dizzy all da time..ish..

仍然 我的心仍然存在..

不能消失

为何仍然不能

husband requirements..

1) brave

2) gentleman

3) caring

4) love

5) sporty

6) car racer

7) don't crap a lot

8) not annoying type

9) educated

10) responsiblity

11) handsome

12) rich

13) creative

14) know how to surprise ppl

15) not a phone talker

16) not a phone smser

17) not extremely talkative

18) know how to make me happy

19) not a locker

20) i need my own freedom

wtf is going on to the internet..

解脱 this song really so suit me..

learn how to put down..

is what i should know..

there are people who really care for me a lot..

there are...

one day..

i will accept you..

celebrate for the past dreams~~

tell me y..............

y like dat de............

yiii..........

2nd family of me

Aw.... Really miss you all~

>.<

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

once u can carry..
of course u can put it down again..

if it is heavy..

put it down slowly..

so u wont hurt yourself..

there is no forever such word..

so freaking frustrated..

annoying kind of feeling..

disturbing kind of feeling..

shitting kind of feeling..

ish..

Teach me how?

How to pull the needle out?..

心痛..

心痛

心痛

心痛

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i love myself more than anyone now..

aim to be more pretty~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is past..

but still..

i can't let go..

keep flash back in my heart..

my brain..

my memory..

no matter how chill and how patient am i..

i'm still losing to a heart..

sad songs in my head..

keep repeating the past..

but then..

is almost the time for me to forget everything

我永远不会忘记

que hay cosas que hay que resolver a continuación resolver .. que hay cosas que hay que hacer a continuación, hacer .. que hay cosas que hay que pensar, entonces, pensar .. hay cosas que necesitan para planear a continuación, el plan .. que hay cosas que necesitan para tomar la decisión luego hacer .. que hay cosas que necesitan para establecer una conclusión luego hacer .. pero que hay cosas que usted quería plan .. no es necesario .. debido a que no puedes predecir el futuro ..

什么是你生命中最快乐的一天？

生命是什么？ 生活像什么？ 为什么会有生命？

i dont feel like starting my assignments..

yiiii....errrr... =_=

It was not nice

Patient is always the best
but sometimes..
it was not

不要难过

任何东西，你可以告诉我

我会陪你..

lol~church service...then cc..adui..tired~~~

You know why i said u never appreciate..

begitu baik punya kawan..

You cheat me dat, dat's the raspberry cake..

yummy~~~

but then, bila masuk mulut..DAMN! DURIAN@@~!#$@$%#$T

next time dont wan to spend u anymore..hmmmphhh!!!

mm kat lei jorrrr..!

dont wan to reply ur msn or msg dy..

jahat jahat jahat!!!!!

NEVER APPRECIATE UR FREN!

begitu baik spend me makan cake..manatau durian cake!

angry dy!

love never fails

triste, triste feliz feliz ?

of course feliz ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hello 2010~
hello College Reopen~
hello Chinese New Year~
hello to Sandakan again~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

Wait for me guys~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! ^^







you never appreciate at all
nunca se aprecian





never

i really don't know how..really confusing..
super duper confused..

heartache