The Spiritual of Life

Chatting

2010-11-14T08:42:00.001-08:00

i have a nice chat today..

not bad that we actually realize that the fault of having a younger age boyfriend.

why i said so?..

well, my own view..

i realize that i couldn't argue with him...

but have to listen to him.. although u know that is totally CRAP..

hurm.. how to say.. for example.. u wouldn't like to argue with your little brother right?..

it is just like this.. how pathetic..

YES.. it is

that is a lot actually.. now i realize that something very annoying happen in my gang recently..

well.. immature...

such like....

teasing.. yes!

very very very annoying... till the max!

have u ever seen a grown up adult that actually over react like a child?..

talk like a child move like a child..

please la..

may i ask..

how old r u?

funny right?..

have u ever think about that your so called teasing is not funny at all..

well.. selfish i guess..

bla bla bla...

i crap and i crap..

anyway... i'm just too bored..

good to have a blog for me to crap.. v^.^v

The Choice

2010-09-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

The choice i made is right...

no turning back..

if not..

the more you regret.. =)

The Rhythm

2010-07-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

The rhythm is mixing around..

The Piano

2010-07-28T05:35:00.000-07:00

The piano plays..

The soft rhythm slowly appears in my mind..

The second world of me enters..

appears in front of the piano..

touches it..

listen..

The music that slowly touches my heart..

Slowly makes me weak..

Slowly..

the tears of sorrow..

appears again..

slowly..

and slowly..

the realistic of me..

disappears.

Why?

2010-07-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

Today..

when i wake up..

I realize that i had a weird dream..

another sleepless night.

2010-07-22T19:02:00.000-07:00

quite a while i didn't update my blog..

well.. didn't know why today have the mood..

the first sentence that popped out in my mind..

I don't want to dream anymore..

can I sleep in peace?..

I'm having almost the same dream repeat and repeating again..

i wish there's a "stop" mode for me to press..

past tense..

but still continuous tense..

the engagement ring~

2010-05-25T06:06:00.000-07:00

I will never regret when the ring was put on to my finger~

2010-05-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

i am no longer here...

the second chance

2010-05-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

If you think that every one deserve the second chance..

then.. does it means apologize is accepted and forgiven?..

Well, appreciate it, if the second chance is given..

2010-05-02T00:17:00.001-07:00

AIN'T NO MORE

2010-04-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

still never change..

and yet..

seems like won't change..

friends...

the question that you asked me..

and the answer that i couldn't give..

it is just because

i'm too scared to be back the scenes that i wouldn't want..

friends...

the question you asked me..

the answer is yes... definitely yes...

if the whole situation change...

friends...

the question you asked me...

is confusing..

although i got the answer in my heart..

but i'm afraid to do it..

just say i'm a turtle..

but then.. is just.. hope hurts will never return again..

but yet..hoping happiness will come back to me..

2010-04-13T20:33:00.000-07:00

Confusing

2010-03-24T10:27:00.000-07:00

now only i know the feeling..

totally out of my mind...

2010-03-23T11:40:00.000-07:00

super duper luper fuper... TIRED

fark my life..damn...

what a frigging emo day...

extremely emo...

emo kia...again...always..every day every second every minute every hour...

when does this 'emo' can get rid from my life...

pissing me off..

FARK!

2010-03-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

i miss you ...

box myself

2010-03-11T10:24:00.000-08:00

angie..

stop thinking nonsense lorh..

*box myself*

see u~

2010-03-06T08:40:00.000-08:00

wuhhoo~~
almost 18th dy~
gonna see u soon~!~!~!

2010-03-04T04:31:00.000-08:00

what i've learnt is to be more patient..
sometimes you see things..
u know theres something wrong..
and you'll start thinking of ask or not?..
if u ask.. maybe things will get worst..
but at least you know the truth..
if you don ask.. you will get crazy by every day play teka teki..
choose to give up.. is the best...
you rather treat is as a dream ..a wonderful dreamt..

you see.. what i said.. it is real.. realli happened.. how pathetic..
if you dont know how to love.. then dont simply choose a girl and get the relationship start..

idiot..

2010-03-02T19:13:00.000-08:00

i miss the moment we are together..
although is not romantic..
i miss the moment you are by my side..
although we are not alone..
i miss the moment you asked me for chance..
although we are in crowd..
i miss the moment when i leave..
although you are not there for me..

i thought of single is the best..
yet..
i cant break through my heart..
the sorrow days..
you brighten me up..
the miserable days..
you are there for me..

you made me looked back..
actually there are more things i left out..
my dear
thank you..

yet
although our distance is far..
but we still meet each other every single day..
although i can't touch you..
but still..
i can see your face..

2010-03-01T10:24:00.000-08:00

woohoo~~~ having so much fun during my birthday~

Thanks guys and gals~~!!

yo'll gave me a big blast~

I enjoyed a lot~

12 am : unexpected surprised given by my step sister and her bf~ =D love u~~!!!

and also unexpected surprised given by my dear~ although u r not here with me..but i appreciate that a lot~! =D love u too~! and also.. my beloved fwens~! all gathered and count down with me~ my god..so touching ><>

accept or not?

2010-02-26T00:47:00.001-08:00

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

accept?

not to...

ala ala...

i dunno..=.="

2010-02-23T20:07:00.001-08:00

the rhythm of the songs..

will make your mind dance..

2010-02-23T08:00:00.000-08:00

~~the good fwen of mine~~
~~ Muackz suching~~
SS gang! XD
cucumber drink..=.="
woohoo~~~ Fwenz forever~

me, suching, likeat(patung stick on da wall), ling

my treasure is going to be here..

2010-02-20T19:44:00.001-08:00

Tell me..
What am I going to do?..
A new year.. a new start for me..
miserable things has over..

flash back..
is just a dream..
an unpredictable dream..
that full of feelings..
happy..sad..sour..bitter...sweet..

The time at home..
Is still the best of the best..
full of trees..
Greenish of the forest..
Ocean sounds..
that can wipe my tears away..
I miss that a lot...

Now..the important thing is..
I miss you a lot..
my friends~
You all gave me an extremely crazy memorable day~
and probably..
I found my treasure..
I never thought that it would be my treasure..
Never thought of it..
Lucky~

new life is started~!

I want to go back to the place i was born~ XD
as soon as possible..

laziness..

2010-02-20T02:14:00.000-08:00

lazy..
i miss my hometown a lot..
don't feel like doing my assignments..
haih..

2010-02-10T08:58:00.001-08:00

Fly upon the sky

2010-02-09T06:08:00.000-08:00

Good person, you're are the first who love me

The person who taught me to love

Never forget you

I will remember you

I'll remember only you

Perhaps, I might see you,

So I wore the cloths you bought to me

I cut my hair short, the way you like it

To walk the road I walked with you

I went round the long way thinking maybe you'd be there

I still have the same phone number

My house is still same

in case you come and find me

Oh my mini hompy,

I have the songs we listened together

Thinking maybe you'll look

and you'll come back again

we still haven't forgotten

we still want each other

we're still in love

SEPERATED!

Honestly I miss you

I miss you like crazy

I'll wait for you till the end

I stop and wonder

If you'll come back to me

Because I might see you

I might get weak on the road

Because my heart might become weak

I might reveal my worn out self

In order to ignore the road we walked together

I take a long way

Because you might be there

I already change my phone number

Because i might think of you I moved my house, too

But my mouth keeps spilling words I shouldn't say

Maybe because I might see you

because you might come back

i'll begin again

I want to say to you

That even if we could never see each other again

I'm still holding on you

As the rain pours down

The memories of our first meeting come

I feel so pathetic

You still have a place in my heart

Do I have the courage to resist you?

Even so, I'll endure it a little more

My love to you is so strong

I tired my best but its impossible

maybe i'll see you by coincidence

and maybe you'll see me

I wipe my tears

while looking at myself in the mirror

Hoping maybe you'll come back....

2010-02-02T08:21:00.000-08:00

I can't defeat my heart

2010-01-31T03:27:00.000-08:00

what am i thinking recently?..

seems like lost memory..

memory card missing in my brain?..

or corrupted again..

2010-01-29T04:33:00.000-08:00

你伤害了从第一.. 你想伤害第二次？

疯狂的

2010-01-28T17:47:00.000-08:00

jin pain my hand.. ish..

dizzy all da time..ish..

2010-01-28T06:10:00.000-08:00

仍然我的心仍然存在..

不能消失

为何仍然不能

2010-01-27T07:49:00.000-08:00

husband requirements..

1) brave

2) gentleman

3) caring

4) love

5) sporty

6) car racer

7) don't crap a lot

8) not annoying type

9) educated

10) responsiblity

11) handsome

12) rich

13) creative

14) know how to surprise ppl

15) not a phone talker

16) not a phone smser

17) not extremely talkative

18) know how to make me happy

19) not a locker

20) i need my own freedom

2010-01-26T08:34:00.001-08:00

wtf is going on to the internet..

2010-01-24T18:24:00.000-08:00

解脱 this song really so suit me..

learn how to put down..

is what i should know..

there are people who really care for me a lot..

there are...

one day..

i will accept you..

2010-01-22T18:35:00.000-08:00

celebrate for the past dreams~~

2010-01-21T06:39:00.000-08:00

tell me y..............

y like dat de............

yiii..........

2nd family of me

2010-01-20T01:48:00.000-08:00

Aw.... Really miss you all~

>.<

2010-01-19T18:17:00.000-08:00

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

puppy.. ?

intious 4..?

2010-01-19T11:04:00.000-08:00

once u can carry..
of course u can put it down again..

if it is heavy..

put it down slowly..

so u wont hurt yourself..

2010-01-18T04:23:00.000-08:00

there is no forever such word..

2010-01-17T06:57:00.000-08:00

so freaking frustrated..

annoying kind of feeling..

disturbing kind of feeling..

shitting kind of feeling..

ish..

2010-01-16T04:44:00.000-08:00

Teach me how?

How to pull the needle out?..

2010-01-15T17:21:00.000-08:00

心痛..

心痛

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2010-01-15T08:37:00.000-08:00

i love myself more than anyone now..

aim to be more pretty~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-15T05:13:00.000-08:00

it is past..

but still..

i can't let go..

keep flash back in my heart..

my brain..

my memory..

no matter how chill and how patient am i..

i'm still losing to a heart..

sad songs in my head..

keep repeating the past..

but then..

is almost the time for me to forget everything

2010-01-14T19:34:00.000-08:00

我永远不会忘记

2010-01-13T19:31:00.001-08:00

que hay cosas que hay que resolver a continuación resolver .. que hay cosas que hay que hacer a continuación, hacer .. que hay cosas que hay que pensar, entonces, pensar .. hay cosas que necesitan para planear a continuación, el plan .. que hay cosas que necesitan para tomar la decisión luego hacer .. que hay cosas que necesitan para establecer una conclusión luego hacer .. pero que hay cosas que usted quería plan .. no es necesario .. debido a que no puedes predecir el futuro ..

2010-01-12T04:00:00.001-08:00

什么是你生命中最快乐的一天？

2010-01-09T06:29:00.000-08:00

生命是什么？生活像什么？为什么会有生命？

2010-01-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

i dont feel like starting my assignments..

yiiii....errrr... =_=

2010-01-04T08:50:00.000-08:00

It was not nice

Patient is always the best
but sometimes..
it was not

2010-01-04T05:33:00.001-08:00

不要难过

任何东西，你可以告诉我

我会陪你..

2010-01-03T07:00:00.000-08:00

lol~church service...then cc..adui..tired~~~

You know why i said u never appreciate..

begitu baik punya kawan..

You cheat me dat, dat's the raspberry cake..

yummy~~~

but then, bila masuk mulut..DAMN! DURIAN@@~!#$@$%#$T

next time dont wan to spend u anymore..hmmmphhh!!!

mm kat lei jorrrr..!

dont wan to reply ur msn or msg dy..

jahat jahat jahat!!!!!

NEVER APPRECIATE UR FREN!

begitu baik spend me makan cake..manatau durian cake!

angry dy!

love never fails

2010-01-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

triste, triste feliz feliz ?

of course feliz ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2010-01-02T06:58:00.001-08:00

hello 2010~
hello College Reopen~
hello Chinese New Year~
hello to Sandakan again~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

Wait for me guys~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! ^^

you never appreciate at all
nunca se aprecian

never

2010-01-01T09:12:00.000-08:00

i really don't know how..really confusing..
super duper confused..

heartache

2009-12-29T09:56:00.003-08:00

Me gustaría poder tener un día memorable en la celebración de la llegada del año 2010 ..con mi amor

Dios, estoy aquí para orar ..
y espero que usted puede escuchar mis oraciones ..
mi corazón .. .. fe
Con toda la fuerza
y todo el sentimiento ..
en mi alma ... me bendiga ..
Por favor, dame una pista para la respuesta ..
para el i solución tiene que hacer ..
y el valor de tomar ..
Espero bendiga ..
a no ser herido de nuevo ..

mi cumpleaños es pronto ..
Espero .. que será lo mejor para el resto de mi vida ..

Amen ...

confused

2009-12-27T06:48:00.000-08:00

I am so confused...

pretty confused..

2009-12-25T22:08:00.000-08:00

Feliz Navidad people~!!!!!!!

Le deseo todo lo mejor!

2009-12-23T02:59:00.000-08:00

early in da morning pokkai..T-T

spec pun pecah.. aduiii....

ush!

2009-12-20T08:07:00.001-08:00

Problem finally solved!

USH!

2009-12-19T09:29:00.000-08:00

I want to sing~!

Sing

Sing!

SING SING SING!!!!!

SING A SONG!~

2009-12-18T18:28:00.001-08:00

HATE

known or unknown

2009-12-12T22:22:00.000-08:00

why I wouldn't want to know something that I should know?..
Is that necessary for me to know something that i shouldn't know?..
or is that necessary for me to chose to be known or unknown?..
or just choose to forget about it?
or just let it be?

Sometimes being smart is not really a good thing for me..
Sometimes being a dumb is also not a right thing for me..
Sometimes something that you shouldn't know..
But your heart keep telling that there's something that you have to figure it out..
But you know you can't..
It might lost something or you might regret..
Wouldn't this situation hard to solve?..
It is really bothering..even though..

Something that stuck in your mind..
Would it be easily get rid of?..
Some people watch things happen,
Some people wonder what happened,
Do you think some people would make it happen?..

yes..

T-T

2009-12-06T20:33:00.000-08:00

I miss you very much.. T-T

2009-11-16T07:27:00.000-08:00

what is life?..

2009-11-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

Patience..

is what I have..
no matter what happen..
just be steady..
n be patience..
n take it easy..

the wish of mine..

2009-11-04T09:00:00.000-08:00

I wish.. I could have a big brother to protect me from anything..
a real big brother..

but

I know this would not happen.

I wish.. I could have a dream house to keep all my dreams..
only the happy one..

but

I know this would not happen.

I wish.. I could have a safety room to keep my soul safe..
the only soul i have..

but

I know this would not happen.

I wish.. I could have a real heart to keep me happy..
a real heart..

but

I know this would not happen.

the more I wish..
the more It goes away..

goodnight.

2009-10-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

jealousy will always happen...

2009-10-11T02:45:00.000-07:00

dont becoz of feels good then onli be with me...
do love me..if u realli do~
love with ur heart..
came from different family background is not the problem..
be confident..

will love u alwayz..

=)

2009-10-09T14:35:00.000-07:00

seems like..
only junyie u know..

boys will never know..
never..
never will understand..
never..

2009-10-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

i am seriously losing my tempered..
wat is going on..
this is really suffer..
i have done everything to control it..
failed..
even ice cream oso can failed..
wtf

can i just end this in one day..
let me rest at least one day..

pain pain go away..
sick sick go away..
tears tears go away..
burdens burdens go away..

i want my life back please..
dont play me like a doll..
if wan..y dont u just take my life

just..
may I rest in peace..

What..

2009-09-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

I'm nothing..
Nothing at all..

Not in a mood

2009-09-13T01:02:00.000-07:00

haiyor..

not in a mood to do assignments..

I nid WATERRR....

water is my life..xD

chiongg!!!

2009-09-02T19:18:00.000-07:00

eeee...
chiong too much dy..
don't feel like going back to college~!

Transformers

2009-08-15T12:43:00.000-07:00

ARghhh~

paint transformers..paint until high in the middle of the night..
hahaha~

too highhhhhhhh...

until emo

DAMN IT!

Assignments

2009-08-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

2 down...
1 more to go~

The most annoying n frustrating assignment..

ARCYCLIC....!

Learning

2009-08-06T19:21:00.000-07:00

Learn more..
Gain more..

Brainless

2009-08-04T11:22:00.000-07:00

My brain is totally

BLANK!

BLANK!!!!!

blank blank blank!!!!!!

I feel like dying..

2009-08-02T05:00:00.000-07:00

My dinner at Jogoya, Starhill

This is my dessert

(actually still got a lot..but I pick the one I like..hehe)

Dinner
Seafoods, Eggs...Soup..dunno wat soup is dat, sharkfin..coconut drinks..
crab with rice...sushi?..wateva la..

Foods

2009-07-29T19:56:00.000-07:00

I don't care ady!..
I want to eat wateva foods I want!..
No more soya bean and porridge!!!!!..

No foods no life......
Got foods...also no got life......

>"<

Good morning

and

Good night

Hello

and

Bye bye

I am

2009-07-27T18:04:00.000-07:00

Maybe...

I'm not important at all..
Who knows...
Old tradition..
I'm just a girl..
Can I just live da life i want?..
Pls don't just giv me all these burdens..

I wanted to give up everything..
Really cannot move on...
I'm tired...

am I

2009-07-27T00:48:00.000-07:00

I might look like don't know anything..
but actually...

Life is Beautiful

2009-07-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

Don't you agree about that?..
Life is always beautiful...

In suffering

忍耐

2009-07-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

压力是每个人会有的。。
没有压力，人生就没有意义。。

如果
爱情，可以带给你幸福
也可以带给你痛苦。。
[ 如果是我的话，爱情给我力量]

珍惜眼前人。。

p/s: If there's any mistake, pls dont laugh..><"

Heart

2009-07-23T21:17:00.000-07:00

Promises will never be broken..

Rest

2009-07-21T18:53:00.000-07:00

I only did 3 pages..
Still got 10+ pages more to go in 2 weeks time..
Some more got others assignment need to rush as well..

Haiyohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
I really need to rest!
Super tired..

Interior

2009-07-20T02:50:00.000-07:00

Can someone help me to design my room...?

Mew?..

Shoo~

2009-07-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

蘑菇 gonna become a super big 蘑菇 nia...
I need my soul back..
not da lazy one..
but da hardworking one..

Sob >-<
Shoo shoo~ go away lazy worms..

Haiyor..I'm not doing my homework again...
apa macammmm...
很累 oo0o0o0o0o....
alasan oni..T-T

haih~

Harry Potter

2009-07-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

I watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince today with Liz.
Not bad..but..
Can't really understand the ending part...

herm...
Think i need to read that book..haha

P/S : da malay guy sit rite beside me really damn smelly..i cant imagine dat i could stand da smell for 2 hours and 45 minutes...FML

Ngia~

2009-07-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

Final assignments started..
And consider tough..
No...is super tough..

Fml...
>.<

Sefecrefateta #3...

2009-07-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

Socremeezthinmag isay realfallyst boartheearing me...
in my mind..

am I think too much?

Sefecrefateta #2...

2009-07-10T04:09:00.000-07:00

Da Refaialst me is acspitualely novet thefe orane ami I Noewz...

Trust me..

Sefecrefateta...

2009-07-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

Yofuupu knopuwu Ifei alfawasysa mifissasi youfu..

xD

Giving Up

2009-07-05T17:35:00.000-07:00

Suppose to be going quite good on Saturday..
But, this morning, I feel dizzy..
I puke early in da morning..
What else that can provide for me to puke..
I cough like hell in da midnight..
I can't breath out of sudden..
I sneeze all the time..
I wonder what else that i can still handle on..

What the heck is going on actually..
Everythings comes to me in one day..

I have it enough..really..
Really..really and really...................................!

I really do miss my home a lot

sob-

Safety First

2009-07-03T18:59:00.000-07:00

Somehow we do look weird..

Everyone is laughing at us..

But yet, it is for our own safety..

To avoid the H1N1

taken in the KTM

kia si ppl...

The Both Of Us

2009-06-30T07:06:00.001-07:00

Enjoying our steamed
egg

Soh kia pose~

EEeeee.....What?

What do you think>?
Well...I enjoyed a lot..

LOL~

Emo Days

2009-06-27T23:30:00.000-07:00

Weird days..
Weird feeling..
Weird odour...

Smells like a dead body...
Come out all of sudden...
Don't know where is that smell come from...
Investigation failed...

Sometimes...
Feel sick...
Feel dizzy...
Feel like being burn...

Bad dreams happened...
After the smell...

Totally weird all the time...
Seems like something is going to happen on me...
Can't predict what it is...
But....

I'm ready

Question Marks ?

2009-06-26T19:09:00.000-07:00

every night time...

My hamster starts to make a lot of noise...
And I really gets annoyed by her...
And everytime have to place her into the bathroom...
Well then..
She stopped making noises..
Is she likes to be in the bathroom??...

morning...

Lie on the bed...
Starts my day dreams...
A while later...

It happens a lot of questions in my brain...
Somehow, I don't really know what's the problem...

Remain in question marks...

is this how the mushroom act?...